Collicott Slowly Moving Toward Recovery

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During the stillness of a gray december day, Brian and Jen Collicott pass the time enjoying each others company.

"Time is the big issue for me. Days go by so slow," says Brian.

Still confined to a wheelchair, getting outside for a stroll represents an important step of sorts for Brian.

"It's like aging. You don't see yourself age and I don't feel myself getting better, but I know it's getting better I can see it."

What Brian can't see is how he'll ever get beyond the emotional trauma of that early October morning when he and a bus load of Chippewa Falls band students lost the life they'd known and the friends they loved.

"It feels like October 16th to me still, it doesn't feel like Christmas has come and gone it feels like my life has stopped and I'm waiting until I'm right again before it will pick up," says Brian.

"I thought the pain was going to be the worst part and it's not it's the depression and the thoughts that go through your mind and I haven't been able to grieve for anybody and I feel bad and I think about them a lot because they were all my friends"

Since then Brian's relied on the comfort of friends and the unending support of his wife to make it through each day and while he's still dealing with the pain of the past he's trying to keep focused on the promise of the future.

"The goal that I have now is to walk the Memorial Day parade downtown Chippewa with my kids and without needing assistance or a cane or anything and that's May.

Until that spring day Brian says he'll keep rolling through the gray and moving closer to a life he loves.